Julie Anne Peters- By the Time You Read This, I'll Be Dead

2.5/5 stars

Daelyn Rice is broken beyond repair, and after a string of botched suicide attempts, she’s determined to get her death right. She starts visiting a website for “completers”— www. through-the-light.com.

While she’s on the site, Daelyn blogs about her life, uncovering a history of bullying that goes back to kindergarten. When she’s not on the Web, Daelyn’s at her private school, where she’s known as the freak who doesn’t talk. Then, a boy named Santana begins to sit with her after school while she’s waiting to for her parents to pick her up.

Even though she’s made it clear that she wants to be left alone, Santana won’t give up. And it’s too late for Daelyn to be letting people into her life... isn't it?

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I found this book to be very hard to read. Especially for someone who has suffered with a mental illnesses and suicidal thoughts, this book definitely didn't bring pleasant thoughts. I didn't find the writing to be that great either. I felt as if it jumped around A LOT and didn't make much sense in most of the book. I found myself upset with every chapter. Nothing exciting about the characters and I found the situation to be very fake and misunderstood.

I didn't understand how a doctor could be so naive to a suicidal victims thoughts and side with the parents who obviously had no idea what was going on with their daughter. It all was just very unrealistic to me. I did enjoy how this book wasn't like others where the main character wasn't only suicidal but was also deaf so it added to the story line. I wish more would have been explained about the characters back story, why she tried killing herself and why she still wanted to die. None of this was explained.

I'm in no way a mental health expert but this books depiction of it was not at all accurately described in full.

Yes, the story line was changed with some difference in how a website played into account of leading up to when she would die but it didn't add as much as I thought it would. It was also a very predictable book, I already knew how everything was going to play out after the 2nd chapter.

I personally didn't love this book but would recommend it to those who like the genres of self-care, non-fiction and troubling stories.